These 20 days

It would be these 20 days in my life, that i choose to change myself in every way possible. What is the necessity ? and the change .. is it physical or internal ? I have had enough and more of being unhealthy in every possible aspect , throughout my 2 years of time.
I `ve been hitting the gym since 2 days and also started my diet. When i do something for 2 days continuously, it means I am sincere, given !! Since, today is a holiday, i havent worked out today. I plan to be more aggressive from tomorrow ! lez see where it starts.

Sometimes in life, intoxication is the best medicine, to keep your thoughts under vigil. Stoning does help you , better get make it a part of life.

Tabooo !!!!!!!

A few days back, My friend, rather not "so close" were discussing work conditions in B`lore, his dreams and materialistic desires. He suddenly asked me, why don`t you really speak about girls, bike and mobiles ? I was very normal in my reply and returned home, for if i had been late my dinner would have at stake.
After dinner that night, when i went to bed, I just gave a thought to the poser put by him, for which i really could`nt convice even myself, it was kind of perplexing that i was not speaking abt it !! well i need time to grind it and arrive at restore point...which if inot iam starting to speak on those taboo topics ??

Time !!

Sometimes, in life..sorry everytime in Life, we start to think about how we would perform better, if and only if we had some time, But this time it is not about marks, it is about performance. Gearing up is the need of the hour, faster it is .. better for you !!
so no worries, just dont lose sight of the goal !!

The music plays !!

Responsibilities has its own definition "The social force that binds you to the courses of action demanded by that force" . Why is the word social force into existence there ?? I really have no clue, then by definition, i am foisting responsiblities on me.Now,Let that statement not sound as a carefree person losing his free'dom'. Its about a feeling of responsiveness to an action that is the need of the hour.....say !! time period also !!
I have really forced and pressurised myself by very wrong scales, according to which i have to be the most guilty, most pounced personality !! But am i one ?? Yes, wrong measures tend to overestimate an ordinary statement. Ok, stating them to be 'overestimated', what could be the true yardstick then, let me introspect ..... initial being my parents and their well-beings, the next cropping up immediately in my mind is my life-long-song, what should i not give her ? I have to give her everything i owe for she is a personality, who can easily mislead you the first time. so did i get into bait !!
I thought shes very ungenerous, she isnt ! i thought money is something that has value, be it anywhere, it isnt ! so 2 important jusgements have toppled, Now what i dont tend to explore as far as human emptions are concerned are, they aree randomness and is always a reflex, that is the truest, for i now agree with Walsch`s verbiage and the subtlety with which the natural behaviour and normal behaviour stuff were dealt !! I have to do something out of my heart for the girl whom i can pay in no other mode !!!
Am gonna start myself on a mission, of 'not exploring' but only accomplishing for myself with the word relative being erased out, this word puts me into jitters !!
iam doing it for 2 entities, my parents and my lady-love-song !!

I dont know why iam late for the calling of life always. Though at the end of the day , i dont miss my bus, i catch the bus either by hook or crook, believe me if your goal is achieved it would be "The Day" for anyone.
So iam happy for myself, irrespective of whether iam late or not, I feel i would be better if I am a part of the planning commission and , chucked out of the execution commission for the same problem.