Time !!

Sometimes, in life..sorry everytime in Life, we start to think about how we would perform better, if and only if we had some time, But this time it is not about marks, it is about performance. Gearing up is the need of the hour, faster it is .. better for you !!
so no worries, just dont lose sight of the goal !!

The music plays !!

Responsibilities has its own definition "The social force that binds you to the courses of action demanded by that force" . Why is the word social force into existence there ?? I really have no clue, then by definition, i am foisting responsiblities on me.Now,Let that statement not sound as a carefree person losing his free'dom'. Its about a feeling of responsiveness to an action that is the need of the hour.....say !! time period also !!
I have really forced and pressurised myself by very wrong scales, according to which i have to be the most guilty, most pounced personality !! But am i one ?? Yes, wrong measures tend to overestimate an ordinary statement. Ok, stating them to be 'overestimated', what could be the true yardstick then, let me introspect ..... initial being my parents and their well-beings, the next cropping up immediately in my mind is my life-long-song, what should i not give her ? I have to give her everything i owe for she is a personality, who can easily mislead you the first time. so did i get into bait !!
I thought shes very ungenerous, she isnt ! i thought money is something that has value, be it anywhere, it isnt ! so 2 important jusgements have toppled, Now what i dont tend to explore as far as human emptions are concerned are, they aree randomness and is always a reflex, that is the truest, for i now agree with Walsch`s verbiage and the subtlety with which the natural behaviour and normal behaviour stuff were dealt !! I have to do something out of my heart for the girl whom i can pay in no other mode !!!
Am gonna start myself on a mission, of 'not exploring' but only accomplishing for myself with the word relative being erased out, this word puts me into jitters !!
iam doing it for 2 entities, my parents and my lady-love-song !!

I dont know why iam late for the calling of life always. Though at the end of the day , i dont miss my bus, i catch the bus either by hook or crook, believe me if your goal is achieved it would be "The Day" for anyone.
So iam happy for myself, irrespective of whether iam late or not, I feel i would be better if I am a part of the planning commission and , chucked out of the execution commission for the same problem.

I am as reckless as the post says !!

I actually ask her a lot of questions, make her happy about herself, but no questions to me(fullstop) .whats wrong in expecting !! 'Only give and no Take' !! for the heck of it !!, Just because Holy books phrased it , are we to preach the philosophy and not follow the maxim, are all preachers followers ?? ! I am anyways not following it, because reality is not perfect and so is ideal'ity' .

While in college, i was actually bugged. But now everything has grown old, LOVE seems old enough to be celebrated in a happy mode , it is now being celebrated rather getting black. I want to be happy and really want myself to be myself so much so that another inclusion in my life should fit to the model like a T, which if not can prove disastrous, really 'DISASTROUS'.
But my mistakes invariably , I have to accept , my weaknesses can perhaps be related to a whole gamut of feelings, impatience, mood swings, I suffer for which steps to rectify becomes necessary, let me first try out something to get out of mood swing, possibly another post 10 days from date on my reconciliation on mood swing would portray my betterment, HOPEFULLY.